Assalamualaikum and hello peeps. I've been so busy lately since i managed to get a job and thanks to you (you know who you are) for helping me in finding a job which, for now, i am still adapting to my new working environment. A lot of things happened for these past 6 months and too much to type about what happened.
Let me just start the story with my relationship. I was in a relationship with the same boyfriend for these past 6 months. He came back in my life again, and i guess i missed him too much, we figured things out and we got back together on 14th March. The journey was very rough i must say, with his ex girlfriend who loves him so much, still wanting him and put hopes that he might be hers one day, and with the boyfriend who confused with his feelings...I tried catching up with everything, i tried to cope with everything, i tried to accept things as the way it is, but, i guess i was too broken before, that in the end, i gave up on our relationship again after 6 months of being together. He didn't remember our 6th monthsary though. I purposely didn't wish for the monthsary. As much as i remember, we didn't even contact with each other on our 6th monthsary.
Its not just because of that. I discovered something that i didn't tell him about because there's no proof of the things that i knew about. He seems very suspicious in someway also. He won't even let me hold his mobile phone. He didn't show me that much of love like before also. Maybe because i've seen the better side of him before, the side of him before we broke up last year. He changed in someway. To me, he also showed how he have less interest in me and doesn’t bother about me that much. Even my pictures does not impress him that much like before.
He was happy with his ex girlfriend last year until earlier this year. I guess that's what make things different this time. I guess he is okay now, maybe already get back together with his ex girlfriend. Well, i am not surprised though if it really happen.
I am moving on now. Of course i am sad because of the break up that i initiated myself but, i have no strength left to survive in this relationship. I guess i sacrificed too much without i realizing it. I guess i am too tired for everything. I guess i really need to give myself a space. I loved him. Loved him enough that i let him go in the end. I really hope that he will be happy. I know he will always be happy even though it is not with me. I prayed the best for him and i'm leaving for good this time. I guess no matter how many times we got back together, in the end, breakups will always find a way to come to us. It is sad though but what can we do and life must go on right?
Its weird though that we broke up on the same month we had our break up last year.
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