Assalamualaikum and hi. Just finished packing my things to go home and take my bath to clean myself to feel a little bit fresh after a very long day. All i can describe my feelings today is that, i miss my boyfriend very much. I cried just by thinking of him, thinking that i can't have him in front of my eyes every time i need it. Every time i need his hugs.
So i woke up at 11am today and the first thing i did was to check my phone if he whatsapp me to tell me that he already on his way back to his hometown, Kedah. And yes, he did whatsapp me but he told me about his program with his scholar this August. I would love to come and see him or maybe go out with him when he can. But i will surely try my best.
After that, i met Alin for the last time before she graduated and before i go for an internship. Then i went out with my friends, Aida and Diana. But no matter how busy i am, how distracted i can be, the only person i think about is my boyfriend. I see him everywhere. Angau sangat ni. But, maybe because i miss him so much too.
Even when i packed my things just now, i suddenly cried because at this time, at this moment, is our time to spend together. He would whatsapp me and say that he is on his way to meet me and i will cancel my plan to sleep just because i wanted to meet him. I might have my internship just 1 hour away from him but it is still far, that i can't have him all the time.
I guess i cried quite a lot while pack because i stayed in this hostel for a year or half a year maybe? So a lot of things happened while i stayed here, in V5K, where i was happy, i was sad as fuck, where i stare outside the window to look at my boyfriend on his way to the class, to wait for my boyfriend to come and fetch me and to always video call and on the phone with each other even though we stayed in 1 campus.
I just can't stop crying. Even right now, for the second time, i'm typing while crying. Sayang, i'm sorry if i messed our first day berjauhan. You have no idea how i miss you so much that i wish i can have you right now to hug, to calm me down when im crying and when im sad. I love you very much and promise me to always take care of yourself while im not with you, and love only me, touch only me, care only me. Because i will do the same too. And because i know, if we did something bad behind our partner, they will do it back without we realise it. So promise me to always be honest with me and to always communicate and let me know if you are upset with me or anything because right now, we are staying far away. I can't see you and you can't see me. I trust you. You will always be my one and only guy. It will always be you. I love you my man.
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