Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. So here i am again, of course updating my blog when im being emotional and when i am at my lowest. Let me begin with my internship journey.
I decided to do my internship in Ipoh, because the payment is the highest for an intern like me and of course, because i think it might be easier for me to meet my boyfriend. But what can i say, we both have no car, and we are about 50 mins away from each other. 2 weeks passed since i started my internship and he started his new semester. We get along well and we managed to meet each other because the first night i arrived in Perak, i stayed overnight at my sister’s room in UTP and i met my boyfriend.
The moment he asked me ‘nak jumpa?’ , i was very excited. very. The first thing that i did was to hug him, very tight, because i missed the man in front of me at that night, the one that i wanted to meet so bad, the only person that makes me feel secure. That night was the happiest night because i finally meet my man.
Then on the second week, i met him again. And i cant forget how excited he is, how frequent he looked at me and how frequent he said that he misses me. I just love how he expressed his feeling towards me at that time. That almost 3 hours with him was so precious to me.
But today, we had and argument. Its about how badly i wanted his attention but i know, he respect my time to work. I appreciate that so much. I know its my fault, for blaming him because he always busy playing games. I know maybe when he plays the game and spend his time with his friends, is because he wanted to make himself busy, to make him forget for awhile how he misses me too. I know i shouldnt express my feelings about him busy playing games. But i did already. And he is mad at me right now, and i make the situation turns the other way. We talked, we laughed at first when we video called each other just now but then, after i expressed my feelings selfishly, everything becomes the other way. I regretted it. Because i will always be the one who spoiled everything.
I miss my man so much, i want his hugs so bad too. But all i did was to make the situation worse. Im sorry. I just misses you very much...
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