Insecure

Assalamualaikum and hi. Me having trouble to sleep lately sebab banyak sangat fikir benda yang useless. Yeaa man i have anxieties.

   I think that's why i easily overthinking and started to feel down, useless, and everything that are similar to that.

   I have my girl crush. She is someone that to me, she have everything ; kindness, pretty, intelligent, independent, and skillful. But me ? I feel that i have nothing. That's why i easily felt insecure.

   And i think i have a problem that i want everyone around me likes to be with me and have a good connection with me. But, life isn't about satisfying everyone's need kan ? But then, i still wanted to satisfy people's need and always put everyone else first before me. I think that's why i am never happy and people always see me as a sad girl that always overthinking and tweeted sad tweets.

   I tried to be happy. But by the time i am happy, something bad might happened that makes me feel like i don't deserve to be happy. I don't know why am i like this. I think i am just afraid that everyone leaves from my life and left me alone. And i think maybe that's why sometimes i like to spend my time alone. Because maybe i need to get used to it one day.