Believe.

Assalamualaikum and hi. Yesterday i met my boyfriend to have a really deep talk about our relationship. It turns out that (gladly) we still together and i guess we started something fresh and new ?

   I told him yesterday about how i really felt before this about him, about everything and he also, i guess, told me everything. He even mentioned that he is happy when i'm around but not when i'm not in front of him. He also mentioned that he is afraid that he can't make me happy in the future and make his parents happy too. Then i asked him if he needs a break from everything especially me. Honestly, only God knows how nervous i am to say all those words because i would never want it to happened. But it seems like both of us still, maybe need each other. I am beyond happy being his girlfriend and no matter what happened, i know it will be worth it one day or maybe now.

   The reason why i don't want a break up even i've been hurt again for the past few days, is that because i have my faith in him. I believe in him. And of course, because of love. It will always felt like home whenever i'm with him. He seems very happy yesterday when we decided to not to leave each other and try to make things happened again. I guess that i am really in love with him that i still want to make our relationship work and i take this as one of the obstacles that we faced. People might say that i am stupid because forgiving him but to me, it is not something that we should just let go without solving it after so long been hanging on each other.

   I am not staying for the matter of the duration of our relationship but i stayed because i still care. He already made me the happiest girl in the world and i would prefer for us to just follow the flow. We will never know what will happened in the future and what is meant to be will always be.

   I love to be the girl that he wants to share everything and i am already prepared to be with him no matter how hard the situation is because that's what a couple supposed to do.

   If you are reading this sayang, i hope that you felt the same way too and i need you to know that i also, sincerely love you very much and let's try to make our relationship work this time okay ? But if you have any other thoughts, please let me know.